Happy
Oh, yes! I sure am happy. I went to school this morning and unfortunately, I was told that the EAFs would be released two weeks before classes resume pa. And so I thought that I came to school to no avail. However, I felt so much better when I got to meet up with him. All the while I thought he was still mad or disappointed at me and the things I said. I suppose he understood naman why I said the things I did earlier in the morning (Diba? 
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Last night was yet another episode of our mellow-drama series. Hehe. Both of us thought that we were being pushed away by the other, when the truth is hindi naman. Really now. Why would I push away the person I've asked God for?? I've been praying for this for so long now and whatever we have now, I must not let slip off my grip... I realized one thing, though... What makes loving a great feeling is that you have to go through difficulties which make your everyday victories sweeter... Parang after a depressing argument or an exchange of our thoughts on how to improve on each other's identity/being.. When you finally come to the conclusion that you wanna keep the special thing that you share... Hayy naku, I just feel so relieved.. And I know that, I feel for him more... Nothing less... Only more... And I fall deeper, much more deeper... The more I get to know him, the more I see the real him, and the more that I understand why he acts/speaks the way he does...
Maybe nga it's all about understanding... I know all this time I have been picturing someone so ideal, someone close to perfection to call my own... But then it hits me, and I realize that we are perfect in our imperfections... I don't need anyone close to perfection... The challenge of loving is accepting the other person for who he really is, and not wanting to change any aspect of him... I feel for him not because he completes me... I feel for him because I complete him... I don't feel for him because I think that he could make a difference in my life... It's more like I feel for him because I know I can make a difference in his...
Wah, I can't believe I put up a whole bunch of cheese up there. Haha. Well, that's love, I guess! Cheese and corny stuff. I know, I know, don't start it. What matters to me now is that I'm happy and he's happy too. Awwww. This happiness is priceless. 
Another date to remember. 8th of April. (This is the second time we got together...First was on the 2nd of April..)
Hehe. HE happens to be one of my classmates in one of my subjects in the second term. He inspires me. He makes me feel good about myself. He is talented and musically inclined. He is a devout Catholic, just like me. I get butterflies in my tummy when I see him. I get shy around him. He brought back the kilig factor which I have missed out on for several months. 
It's so surreal. Could I be in love again? Or is it too soon to say so? 
I'm confused yet I'm not. There sure is a feeling already. But yeah, I'm not quite sure if it's love that's making me act and feel this way. Haha. Labo. All I know is that I'm soooo dayum happy and grateful.